Giving Energy to Others
When you first meet Erica White, you get an instant surge of positive energy. You get that because Erica’s been giving of herself all of her life: she fills others’ cups through mentorship, friendship, and relationships. She admits that her life has been one of self-doubt, and quite naturally, a result is that she gives so much energy to others instead of to herself.
“I like to talk negatively to myself and beat myself up, and at the same time, my brain is a fixer for other people’s problems.”
In the Spring, when recognizing an exhaustion from this natural affinity of hers to give to others, she felt she was DONE. Quite literally, she had burned herself into exhaustion. She was so drained; she was too tired to start anything new, even if it was a new thing that focused solely on her. She’d stop creating art, she stopped her hobbies...she had little motivation for any of her usual activities. She said,
“It was difficult to commit to anything, because I didn’t realize how exhausted I was from running my life into the ground.”
As Julie began the Program in June 2020, she became the mentor that Erica never expected. Erica joined for vanity reasons, she’ll admit that. She signed up for the class because of “Julie’s body.” No joke, Julie’s history of bikini competitions was enough of a selling point. But through the program, “the whole idea of the body just leaves you…” Erica didn’t expect that she’d be doing an “inside job". She found that change happened when she dug deep and did the hard work around “feeling good inside,” work she’d needed to do for a long time.
In the weekly meetings of both lessons from Julie and sharing from her other classmates, Erica found that she was again self-criticizing. She’d encourage the other women in the group to share their experiences and their struggles, but when it came to herself, she pushed those feelings deep down.
In Her Own Words
Erica shares her story.
What happens when you start to see yourself differently when you look in the mirror.
The Artist's Process
Sealed and Replaced with Beauty
The Joy is in The Journey
Today, Erica remarks that her self growth is not a race to a finish line, but instead, it’s a journey. Each moment, each exercise in self-love along the way, and each positive affirmation is making that journey a little bit easier for Erica. Just a few days before we interviewed her on her experience in the course, she said she experienced different self-talk when looking in the mirror.
"What I told myself in the mirror that day was completely different than what I had always been telling myself...I was like, Oh, you look good. You know, just that shift, of it not being the number of pounds, per se, but just a more loving
relationship with myself."
Erica will say that she’ll happily continue her journey with Julie at her side, growing each and every
day in her own self-worth and love.