A Busy, Hectic Life
“It was really trying to make sense of the goals that I had, and what the roadblocks were that were keeping me from them. Overall I wanted to feel more confident and happy”.
Normally, Jamie goes through the motions of everyday life.
She has 3 children, all still at home, all naturally needing attention. She works from home too, requiring discipline for her job that’s more than the 9-5. Beyond that, Jamie also has a tendency to “go with the flow”, doing what needs to be done to make sure everyone’s taken care of.
While that seems like an easygoing quality, it actually stems from a place of fear. When she was young (and having a brother with special needs), she found out quickly that not having a voice - and going with the “flow” - made her more agreeable and loveable.
Jamie didn’t have the confidence to believe that she would still be loved if she spoke up for what she wanted at times. She believed that her roles as a mother, wife, and employee meant she should stay silent, she was meant to be a giver and that was all.
Jamie was constantly feeling guilty that she wanted more time for herself. She wasn’t sure how to balance that desire with her responsibilities and still make space for herself to grow but she knew that she needed to do something to start taking care of herself, not just everybody else.
“Your life is a story and you finally figure it out. You know the truth of the matter and you want to start rereading the story again.”
Despite reservations about having the time to undertake a course that was purely focused on her needs, something that was very out of character for her, in the end, Jamie will say that she is elated she participated in the program.
Now, Jamie deliberately makes time and space for herself and she’s awakened a beautiful aspect of herself by doing so. She’s also learned that the people in her life love her deeply and want to hear what she thinks and feels. In fact, speaking up and improving the communication within her relationships has helped Jamie to solidify and strengthen her bonds with the people in her life.
She makes decisions much more confidently, with more clarity, feels more energetic, and has found the balance she felt she was missing.